2018 was a year of change both literally and figuratively. In Feb, Shivam and I moved back to India from UK and six months later we were packing our bags once again for Toronto. Life is full of surprises and it is upon us what we make out of it. So while all of this was happening, my mind was set on things not going as per our plan and I neglected the bigger picture. Now that I think of it, 2018 made me a stronger person than I ever was and it was not half bad a year to be frank.
They say fear kills more dreams than failure ever will and in my case it was the fear of failure that consumed my mind. I was not in a good space mentally, kept falling sick a lot throughout the year and never felt this demotivated ever in my life. One thing lead to another and before I knew, this chain reaction had resulted in self doubt and self loathing. But something changed towards the end of the year. I decided to make things right and started with prioritising my happiness over everything else to deal with this negativity. A problem is only fully resolved once you know the real cause behind it and last year taught me to be more mindful about that. Reading inspirational books and listening to podcasts really helped me find answers to my questions. I learnt that it is ok to cut off, to step back and take things slowly. That we are not alone in this and how important it is to understand your self worth to succeed in life.
Having faced some hard truths this past year, my real goal for 2019 is to continue working on myself both physically and mentally and be a happier person in general. For I cannot expect to find outside what I don’t feel from inside. I absolutely believe that universe works in a magical way and our thoughts shape our life. So keeping that in mind, my aim going forward is to work on cultivating positive thoughts and have a better clarity of things that I want.
Career wise, this is the year to work on upscaling my skill sets and be more marketable. I also wish to build a community of like-minded people and create content that makes me happy without getting bogged down by numbers. Most importantly, I will focus on becoming a better version of myself in every aspect! So cheers to that and to new year with new possibilities! Let’s make it a memorable one. 🙂